Mind blown. Going to look into setting spray asap.
The fact that I was celebrating my birthday in MY own house.
That I cooked for all my loved ones in my own kitchen. Used my china when we ran out of dessert plates.
Maybe it was the fact that one of my oldest friends came by with her husband and 3 month old baby and when she announced that the baby wouldn’t be staying, I was slightly disappointed.
Maybe it’s because one of my oldest friends even has a baby, or because we spent a good portion of the night talking about weddings, breast feeding and dining room tables.
It could be because I laughed and had as much fun with my friends on Friday as I did with my family on Saturday.
Maybe it happened as I was told to make a wish. The fact that I couldn’t come up with any.
Did it sneak in when I blew the candles out? A feeling. This difference. This change in the tide I can’t describe. Always pushing on, looking forward, moving ahead. Standing here now wishing I could hit pause. Linger a while. Take it all in. The push to move on suddenly feeling like a pull. Slightly unwilling.
The alarm is going off. I’m reaching for snooze.
Maybe it was the two drinks I had. Wanting another. Not even attempting it. Still feeling groggy in the morning.
Does one door have to close for the next door to open?
Maybe it’s all in my head. Thoughts and feelings about what’s up ahead as the road curves and winds.
And then again, maybe it’s just the house.
I’ve turned into such a homebody over the last few months (maybe you’ve noticed?) so it was kind of a no brainer when I decided to host my own birthday celebrations this year. My husband thinks I’m crazy but I truly enjoy planning menus, practicing cooking for a large group (this does not come easy to me) and getting to lounge around our house instead of dressing up and trying to be on time for reservations.
My girlfriends are coming over Friday night, which is my actual bday, for a sleepover filled with lots of bubbly, cheesy fondue, all the fixings, cake and ice cream. Saturday, I’m cooking pulled pork sliders for my family with potato salad, baked beans, and grilled pineapple as sides.
I’m just really thankful I have great people to share my 31st birthday with who also won’t mind when I stuff my face as if no one is watching.